Don't know what you got 'til it's gone.
-but I knew what I had. I know what I have. I want what I have.

That's it, I guess. It's been taken completely out of my hands, and, realise it or not, it's in yours.
It's not my call anymore, I have nothing to think about. As far as I know, I want to give it another chance, to persevere and continue trying as much as I can, to hold on to whatever I can, to clutch at every straw. If tears could solve everything, everything would have been solved a hundred times over.
Sounds desperate?
It's because I love you, I still love you so very much. You're so special to me, you were all I could think about, and you still are. No matter how hurt I am, no matter how all this has screwed me up and fucked with my mind, I still love you, and nothing will ever stop that.
I know you hurt too, I know you're confused and I understand the need for this break. I've learnt things that have hurt me badly, but I can see it from your angle and I only wish you'd told me sooner.
I'm not going to beg and I'm not going to plead with you, it's all up to you and I've given myself up.
Remember how it was like before, remember how we met, remember all the times we've said "I love you", remember every touch and every little word.
I hope everything we used to say wasn't a lie. It was true then, and I hope it stays true for now, and for always.

Just know that I stand firm in my belief in you.
I hope you believe in me too.

Stay strong.

it's going to be a long, long week.



This is the best song right now.

I can't tell you baby what went wrong
I can't make you feel what you felt so long ago
I'll let it show
I can't give you back what's been hurt
Heartaches come and go and all that's left are the words
I can't let go
If we take some time to think it over baby
Take some time, let me know
If you really want to go

Don't know what you got till it's gone
Don't know what it is I did so wrong
Now I know what I got
It's just this song
And it ain't easy to get back
Takes so long

I can't feel the things that cause you pain
I can't clear my heart of your love it falls like rain
Ain't the same
I hear you calling far away
Tearing through my soul I just can't take another day
Who's to blame
If we take some time to think it over baby
Take some time let me know
If you really wanna go

Don't know what you got till it's gone
Don't know what it is I did so wrong
Now I know what I got
It's just this song
And it ain't easy to get back
Takes so long

Do you wanna see me beggin' baby
Can't you give me just one more day
Can't you see my heart's been draggin' lately
I've been lookin' for the words to say

Don't know what you got till it's gone
Don't know what it is I did so wrong
Now I know what I got
It's just this song
And it ain't easy to get back
Takes so long

Don't know what you got till it's gone no
Don't know what it is I did so wrong
Now I know what I got
It's just this song
And it ain't easy to get back
Takes so long

-Cinderella, "Don't Know What You Got"